Sunday, we went to the beach (2nd beach trip). It was exhausting, but I got more shells, so there’s that. Took a nap when we got back, then kidnapped the Daughter of Friend for a tie-dye Pride thing. That was fun.

Talked with Granny Sídhe Monday. Loved hearing about the Minecraft shenanigans, even if the major world loss gave me secondary pain… a moment of silence…

Yesterday was IFS/EMDR again. Wooooo… it was rough, as usual lol. It wears me out mentally and emotionally, but that’s not a bad thing. It’s necessary. And next week, when I’m able to use my PC, we get into the actual EMDR stuff. I imagine it’s going to ALSO be a bit rough. 😅 Stay tuned for that!

This also caused quite a bit of self-reflection and overthinking. The processing aftermath is more difficult than the actual therapy itself. And I’d woken up in a depressy mood to begin with. Therapy was able to relieve some of the overwhelming stress involved in a very specific incident from my childhood, which I’ve actually referenced in another post (can’t tag from phone app). It isn’t gone, of course, but… less shitty?! All the same, it was hard and left me with lots of mixed feels. I was pretty quiet and mostly distant the rest of the day. Don’t think The Boyfriend really noticed, but it is what it is.

And today? I hope we have a last lazy day during the Thing, bc we go home tomorrow. It’s going to be a VERY long day and we won’t be back till super late. I’m ready, though. I miss my cats. I wanna play Valheim. I wanna slep in my own bed and not socialize for an entire month haha.

So yeah. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to post tomorrow, which is fine by me. I’ll do my best to get back on track Friday. 💖