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My Wish…
So, this one is more like the realistic version of the “one single wish” I would have: My Wish – to know every single language in existence: read, write, speak, listen, understand, and translate. This means eeeeevery language, including: computers, animals and plants, aliens (if they’re out there), MATHS, all the languages humans have every…
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Monday Mark – 7.5 & 8.0
7.5 – For Last Week’s MM: You’re not afraid of failing. You’re afraid of being seen failing. Most people aren’t paying attention to what you’re doing, and your loudest critics are probably too scared to try. What are you so worried about? While I was growing up, failure (as seen by my father – “The Plague”) was…
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ADHD Research – Phase 3
On the heels of my previous two ADHD Research Phases, armed with inspiration and validation from WearsTwoGowns (thank you so much!), I’m going to dive further into the possible connection between my cPTSD (diagnosed currently as PTSD) – i.e. lifetime of trauma – and the The Pituitary Gland. Or, as I like to call it……
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An Unexpected Lifeline
I previously wrote two posts: ADHD Research Phase 1 and Phase 2 – detailing my (once again) renewed research energy in trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with me. Based on previous research and updated information from viable resources on the internet, I curated these posts specifically to remember exactly what I…
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Foundations
A healthy relationship (romantic or not) requires healthy foundations. I used to believe that all that was needed for that was: Trust, Respect, and Communication. I have learned well over the years that it takes so much more than that. While these three things are tantamount, they are not the be all, end all. So…
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My Whole Life
Honestly, it would be easier to list the times I haven’t felt out of place. Those rare times in my life that I’ve felt “at home” in certain places and with certain people. I have very seldom “fit in.” It’s also slim pickings to have felt this way in my own body and space, no…
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ADHD Research – Phase 2
Whew. Ok, so… day before yesterday I went into ADHD Research Mode and info dumped quite a bit… mostly so that I could have a place where I’ve documented what I was looking for and not forget. Also, to deep dive further. Here is the continuation of my rabbit hole-ing… I left off with the…
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Monday Mark – 6.5 & 7.0
6.5 – For Last Week’s MM: The best investments are the things no one can take away from you: knowledge, experience, mindset, attitude. The weakest investments are the things that you can lose at any time: status, emotions, material things. Have you been investing in the right things? Why or why not? Reflecting on this……
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ADHD Research – Phase 1
Once in a while, the “whore for <insert thing>” part of me gets a random flash of inspiration to delve deeply into research because I have an insatiable desire to know “why it do dis?!” Today’s Inspiration?! Why the hell does my body keep – repeatedly – rejecting medications (specifically after having my period)? For…
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The Reclamation Room
So I’m gonna go out on a limb and share something I did, the limb being “omg there’s my whole face n shit”… lol Thing is, I’m not really trying to remain super anonymous or anything, but it feels weird sharing my actual self after so long using an AI created icon and such (which,…
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The Egg Theory
I came across this gem ages ago and still love to read it once in a while. I’ve also provided an animated YouTube video that goes along with it. Sometimes, I ponder what the point of everything is, what are we even doing, and other such life and purpose related things. As such… this one…
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Coping Mechanisms
Sometimes, mindless tasks help distract my brain from the overwhelming pressure and weight of my TRMDD/Anhedonia. Sunday night, everything bottomed out and I’ve been stuck cycling between Apathy, Numbness, and bouts of Dissociation (also coping mechanisms) for a solid 48 hours, as of last night. When it gets like this, I have zero motivation to…
Who IS EnchiPants?! 