9.5 – For Last Week’s MM:

You don’t build resilience by feeling good all the time.
You build resilience by getting better at feeling bad.

To deny pain is to deny our own potential growth.

How good are you at feeling bad? What pain might you be denying?

Pick one thing you’re willing to feel bad about, and decide how this pain will help you grow. Let me know what you find.

I think I’ve pretty well mastered being “good” at pain, considering. I feel like a broken record saying that I’ve suffered trauma my entire life, resulting in chronic pain and mental health issues. Sad facts, I have consistently had to learn how to adapt to new pain, repeated abuse, and too many other things that I don’t feel like listing at the moment.

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10.0 – The Only Way to Feel Better

Two things for you to think about

The only way to feel better about yourself is to do things worth feeling good about.

Self-love is a form of action, not merely a belief.

You can’t think your way into a better life, you have to live it.

Reflect: Then consider sharing this thought with others.

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Two things for you to ask yourself

What have you done recently that’s worth feeling good about? How did that make you feel?

Recommended: Use these as journaling prompts for the week.

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One thing for you to try this week

Do one thing this week that’s worth feeling good about. It could be something you’ve been putting off, something that scares you, or something that will make someone’s day. Let me know how it goes.

Remember: Small changes lead to lasting breakthroughs.

https://markmanson.net/

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As for how I’m doing… Pretty sure The Boyfriend had another relapse last night. There were a couple last week, as well. Silver lining? Those spurred him into action to get us into the Recovery Program I’ve been wanting to sign up for since the get-go. This addiction shit is exhausting. I think it’s time to discuss putting limits on his phone, since the temptation to relapse is almost always at night, when he ought to be putting his phone away and going to sleep. His therapist gave him a couple exercises to do when he’s tempted. He says he’s done them, but I can tell from last night’s shit that he didn’t use them.

I’m so fucking tired.