I have and continue to struggle to fully accept and trust my instincts.
My instincts are consistently at odds with my logical brain and my desire to give people the benefit of the doubt.
There have been a few key times in my life where I have listened and fully trusted my instincts, especially regarding dangerous men. As such, I have avoided that danger and it left me wondering why my instincts were so keen.
More often than not, though, I end up ignoring them and find myself in situations with people that are less than what they presented themselves to be. Not necessarily dangerous, but sometimes the levels of toxicity aren’t as apparent until I’m deep in it. At that point, the process of extricating myself becomes laborious.
Besides… trusting my instincts and having proof of truth are two totally separate entities, especially with interpersonal relationships. The other party would have to be fully vulnerable and willing to communicate in such a way as to implicate themselves in whatever negative thing my instincts are picking up on.
Unfortunately, that doesn’t happen very often and I’m left to feel crazy and stupid, until proven otherwise. Thing is… my instincts are consistently correct, whether I listen to them or not. I do eventually find this out, one way or another.
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