This one will be quick and dirty, me thinks. I only have a short time before I have to leave for a doctor’s appointment (why did I make it for 7am?!).

Ever since the Ex-Texting Incident – and my subsequent panic attack and many conversations about it – I’ve dropped deeply into “Emotional Flatlining” Mode (mostly numbness). Along with my heart being a whole dick to me (ugh), causing major palpitations, I’ve been feeling as though my entire body is filled with lead. It’s fucking exhausting, to say the least. Never mind the lightheadedness when I traverse the stairs (as little as possible).

I think I’ve deduced that the major cause of the heart stuff is the muscle relaxer I take “as needed.” Plan to inform the doctor of that today and see what we have to do about that.

Anyway, I’ll also be getting my nails done later. I consider that a “self care” thing, because it’s about the only true thing I do just for me (outside of therapy). I certainly haven’t been keeping up with any other types of self care. I just haven’t had the motivation or energy.

Side Quest: Heh. AI featured photo… she’s holding 2 cups of stuff and that’s funny to me, so I left it. 😛