I definitely spend more of my time thinking about the past. Thinking about the future is difficult for me, because it doesn’t seem very hopeful, given everything currently happening in my life and how I exist.
The silver lining? I learn from the past. Sometimes it comes easy and growth happens. Sometimes, I have to repeat mistakes over and over before I finally get it. And sometimes – The Universe decides that I need to learn something really difficult.
The last few days have been pretty decent. Christmas was far better this go ’round than last year. I didn’t feel distraught, lonely, abandoned, and ready to die. I do wish I’d been able to spend it with my son, but… that’s just how things are right now. Not much can be done about that. And, of course, things with The Boyfriend are much better than last year, which makes a HUGE difference.
Anyway… my brain is tired and I want to drown in a video game for a while. Gotta try and get myself back into the habit of journal/blogging again… lol
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