I honestly don’t remember what we did for New Years last year. It isn’t that we got shitfaced or anything, but things were in so much turmoil between us, it passed by without fanfare and wasn’t committed to memory. I suppose that’s more likely a good thing, given what Xmas and everything around it was like…

Thus far, we have no plans to celebrate the coming new year and I don’t expect any will come up. We will probably do the same thing we do any other day, which is play video games, watch a show, and just generally be as lazy as possible haha.

I also don’t ascribe to “New Years Resolutions” – mostly because I know that I don’t have the conviction or motivation to stick with any lofty goals I might make. So, the best I can do is hope that next year is one of calmness and peace, growth and healing. I really want to feel chosen by The Boyfriend, too, but… I might also be leaning toward acceptance. I mean… I choose him over and over, every single day. I want us to grow closer and more connected. But I also don’t want him to feel obligated or force things to work between us, let alone trap him in a relationship he may not even want. Acceptance is hard to come by, but it may just come to that eventually. Who knows.

Either way, I wish you all a wonderful new year and hope that it is everything you want and need.