EnchiPants: a blog about the traumatic life of a nerdy girl who grew into a broken woman
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Bittersweet Purgatory
Well, at least the featured AI pic is cool. So Sayeth the Google: Purgatory is a Roman Catholic doctrine describing a post-death process of purification for souls that are not yet perfect enough to enter heaven. Souls in purgatory are in God’s friendship but must be cleansed of attachment to sin before they can reach God’s presence. This…
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Monday Mark – 2.5 & 3.0
2.5 – For Last Week’s MM: I actually ponder “trust” and all that entails quite frequently. You see, The Boyfriend broke my trust as early on as last October, though I didn’t know the full extent of it – especially the “wtf is going on” part – until this past February. The consequences of realizing my…
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Gamer Nerd
Soooo… in my listless existence yesterday, I decided to watch my last streaming video I posted while I reached out to friends and inquired at playing some video games and updated the 🍴 Fork Knife (Fortnite lol) – which took foreeeeveeer. Finally finished that and was joined by 2 of muh frens (Nashi and GenGen)…
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The Down Side
H. I. Triple L. The Downhill Slide? Sorry. I’m late posting today, the motivation has flown away into the vast beyond. After the shenanigans with the former anti-psychotic and all that entailed, I’m glad to be off it, but… I wonder if it wasn’t ALSO helping with motivation. I stopped taking it because of the…
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Moab
On May 1st, 2013, I set off on a solo 2-week bike trip to visit Moab, UT where I was born. Hard to believe that was 12 years ago. At the time, I rode Zuki (2003 Suzuki 800), my second bike. I traveled from my little town in Arkansas to Kansas City, staying with a…
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EMDR
So Sayeth the Google: EMDR, or Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing, is a psychotherapy treatment that helps people heal from trauma and other distressing life experiences. It’s based on the idea that the mind can naturally heal from psychological trauma in a way similar to how the body heals from physical wounds. EMDR therapy involves eight phases, including…
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Stars & Planets
Went on morning “Walkies” with The Boyfriend. It’s just now 5am, but the weather was perfect. Caught a nice picture of the moon, starts, and I’m assuming a couple very bright planets. I don’t know much astronomy, but The BF said one is probably Jupiter. He’s a nerd (and I like that). Yesterday evening wasn’t…
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Monday Mark – 1.5 & 2.0
1.5 – For Last Week’s MM: I have to admit that it was extremely rough with my physical issues and I hadn’t put much thought into what I would consume less of… other than dairy or vaping?! I did have to consume more water, fiber, and MiraLax. As for external entertainment, sad music… by default,…
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Love/Hate
Thank you TonysBologna: “How to Write More” – for inspiring me to get off my ass and just write. I was legitimately on my ass on the couch scrolling on my phone… and ya called me out (damnit 😝)! Also, visit the site where I got the featured picture from, because holy shit that’s some…
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Walkies?!
Soooo… I went with The Boyfriend on his “run” this morning (it was so early!). We walked the block-ish to the neighborhood park (is smol) and I rested on the first bench while he started his regimen. I did eventually get up and walk the track to the next bench, waiting for him to finish.…
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Painful Sleep
This bout with the meds and shit really screwed things up for me. Not shocking, it DOES happen, but fuck me is it frustrating. I hate it. Trying to find medicine to help me with pain (or “happiness”) is like finding needle in a haystack. And? Even if it works, the side effects are unbearable…
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Bleh
I’ve had a rough go these past few days. Today, I woke up with a headache, probably from dehydration, and sore from sleep (or lack thereof, really). I’m not really motivated to write, either. I’m exhausted, sore, and just generally not feeling all that great. I’m doing “better” than I have been, which isn’t saying…
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