EnchiPants: a blog about the traumatic life of a nerdy girl who grew into a broken woman
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Ugh. Mondays.
Welp… I’m honestly at a loss for words (I’m sure that will improve). All I really want to do at this point is curl up and succumb to a permanent nap. Hard truths… I do want my suffering to end, I just don’t have the balls to make that happen. Probably for the best, I…
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The Void of Despair
“Words of Affirmation” is my Love Language. Words are my emotional and mental lifeblood, they can lift me up AND break me down. They can help me thrive in tough times, or… send me spiraling into The Void of Despair – which is not a good place for me. Hurtful words are like a landmine,…
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Bleh… religion
First, the featured image was retrieved from here… I’ll start off with the “motto” I stole from my best friend, Granny Sídhe: I believe in the validity of all faiths and none. I’m not sure where she got it from, I know she’s told me… but alas, shit memory strikes again! 😅 That being said,…
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WTAF, Brain?!
So, there I was, strolling calmly along a gravel path in “normal” dreamlike fashion, nothing out-of-the-ordinary worth noting. It was a generally nice day with a few clouds scattering the sky. I remember seeing a sign previously, but not what it said, just that it was naming an area where a road would end in…
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I’m a Whore for Psychology
A favorite thing of mine to say is, “I’m a whore for __________.” I think it lets the receiver know that I’m pretty obsessed with whatever that thing is. It was especially entertaining when I used it on My German for the first time. Language barriers are fun sometimes, even though he speaks English really…
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The Dementor
Yeah, I enjoyed Harry Potter. Can’t say I’m a fan of the author, but… this isn’t about HP. It’s – yet another – “nickname” scenario. I met Isaac (The Dementor) in May of 2013, shortly after I’d been fired from the apartment management job (See Here). A friend of mine had set me up to…
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The Aftermath
One song that I used to love, for no other reason than how beautiful it was, is “You Lost Me” – by Christina Aguilera. It’s 15 years old now and I still love it. The problem is that now it’s hauntingly beautiful and – unfortunately – relatable (in a way). It’s another “need to listen…
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My Love/Hate Relationship with “Romance”
When I was a little girl in Seattle, WA, I had some BIG admiration for Mighty Mouse (*sings* Here I come to save the daaaay!). I wouldn’t call it a crush, given how smol I was (like 4-ish?!). I doubt anyone that age really understands the dynamics of it. However, I believe this was the…
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Dungeons & Dragons BBQ
Oooooh, boy! Would I love to host a D&D themed BBQ with some famous nerds. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not one of those celebrity obsessed types, but I do love a few of them. Henry Cavill would be my first choice. I know he’s more of a Warhammer type, but come on (I…
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Instrumental?!
I write this as I am listening to one of my newest favorite songs: I plan to insert links to some music that I have saved specifically on my desktop. It was difficult to come up with a good title this time because I like a LOT of different genres of music. I often say…
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Today is Stupid
LMAO, yep. AI Generated Featured Picture – SUCCESS (for the record, I typed “Grumpy Fireworks” as the title and hit that “Generate with AI” button)! So yeah. I’ll confess: not much in the mood to celebrate today. Since I started off writing some stuff for a future page (Coming Soon – R4S!) I wish to…
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I’m Tired
I did a “Life Update” on my FB this morning… this is the way I used to journal, once in a blue moon. It isn’t consistent, but sometimes I just throw a bit out there because everything gets to be too much and I need an outlet. Such is the same this morning, except this…
The Journey of a Thousand Miles Begins with One Step – Lao Tzu
From the: Tao te Ching
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