EnchiPants: a blog about the traumatic life of a nerdy girl who grew into a broken woman
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The Aftermath
One song that I used to love, for no other reason than how beautiful it was, is “You Lost Me” – by Christina Aguilera. It’s 15 years old now and I still love it. The problem is that now it’s hauntingly beautiful and – unfortunately – relatable (in a way). It’s another “need to listen…
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My Love/Hate Relationship with “Romance”
When I was a little girl in Seattle, WA, I had some BIG admiration for Mighty Mouse (*sings* Here I come to save the daaaay!). I wouldn’t call it a crush, given how smol I was (like 4-ish?!). I doubt anyone that age really understands the dynamics of it. However, I believe this was the…
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Dungeons & Dragons BBQ
Oooooh, boy! Would I love to host a D&D themed BBQ with some famous nerds. Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not one of those celebrity obsessed types, but I do love a few of them. Henry Cavill would be my first choice. I know he’s more of a Warhammer type, but come on (I…
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Instrumental?!
I write this as I am listening to one of my newest favorite songs: I plan to insert links to some music that I have saved specifically on my desktop. It was difficult to come up with a good title this time because I like a LOT of different genres of music. I often say…
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Today is Stupid
LMAO, yep. AI Generated Featured Picture – SUCCESS (for the record, I typed “Grumpy Fireworks” as the title and hit that “Generate with AI” button)! So yeah. I’ll confess: not much in the mood to celebrate today. Since I started off writing some stuff for a future page (Coming Soon – R4S!) I wish to…
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I’m Tired
I did a “Life Update” on my FB this morning… this is the way I used to journal, once in a blue moon. It isn’t consistent, but sometimes I just throw a bit out there because everything gets to be too much and I need an outlet. Such is the same this morning, except this…
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Gratitude
Ambigrams are pretty awesome, if you ask me. This is one of my tattoos, which I got ages ago, inspired by my Mentor (Ursa). I was actually IN Colorado at the time of conception, when I spent a solid 6 hours drawing it. It didn’t look like what I have now, though, because when I…
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One Favorite Moment
It’s fairly difficult for me to think back and find a moment in my life that I would choose as a favorite, mostly because those are few and far between. I’ve talked quite a bit in my past entries about how much trauma and strife I’ve been through. However, the one I’m having come up…
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Gravity – Special Edition
Dis bish. In my first “Gravity” post, I went on quite the rant. I shared very few examples of the bullshit I went through as his wife and subsequently his ex-wife. I barely scratched the surface of the horrible shit he’s put me through, especially after the divorce and the parameters of our shared custody…
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Forgiveness
During one of my Women’s Support Group meetings for R4S – an addiction recovery program (more to come on that, stay tuned) – we discussed how difficult it is to forgive our partners for the Betrayal Trauma and everything else they inflicted on us. One of the other ladies talked about the overwhelming pressure that…
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I Found a Squirrel in My Basement
Heh. Whilst doing the morning cat swap routine, I discovered Squirrel in the basement. I didn’t get a picture at the time, so here is Squirrel: GAH! Kawaaiiiiii (cute in Japanese, cuz I’m a nerd). Dis the cat we think belongs to the new neighbors. I nicknamed it Squirrel because it’s hair is mostly short-medium,…
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The Delusions of Gravity – Part Deux
Well… an update. I don’t have many words. Gravity never ceases to amaze me with the utter bullshit his delusions can drum up. He makes me fucking tired. And yeah, he brings me down (hence the apt nickname). So, here ya go… So yeah… apparently, he still has no idea what it was like to…
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