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  • My Whole Life

    My Whole Life

    Honestly, it would be easier to list the times I haven’t felt out of place. Those rare times in my life that I’ve felt “at home” in certain places and with certain people. I have very seldom “fit in.” It’s also slim pickings to have felt this way in my own body and space, no…

  • ADHD Research – Phase 2

    ADHD Research – Phase 2

    Whew. Ok, so… day before yesterday I went into ADHD Research Mode and info dumped quite a bit… mostly so that I could have a place where I’ve documented what I was looking for and not forget. Also, to deep dive further. Here is the continuation of my rabbit hole-ing… I left off with the…

  • Monday Mark – 6.5 & 7.0

    Monday Mark – 6.5 & 7.0

    6.5 – For Last Week’s MM: The best investments are the things no one can take away from you: knowledge, experience, mindset, attitude. The weakest investments are the things that you can lose at any time: status, emotions, material things. Have you been investing in the right things? Why or why not? Reflecting on this……

  • ADHD Research – Phase 1

    ADHD Research – Phase 1

    Once in a while, the “whore for <insert thing>” part of me gets a random flash of inspiration to delve deeply into research because I have an insatiable desire to know “why it do dis?!” Today’s Inspiration?! Why the hell does my body keep – repeatedly – rejecting medications (specifically after having my period)? For…

  • The Reclamation Room

    The Reclamation Room

    So I’m gonna go out on a limb and share something I did, the limb being “omg there’s my whole face n shit”… lol Thing is, I’m not really trying to remain super anonymous or anything, but it feels weird sharing my actual self after so long using an AI created icon and such (which,…

  • The Egg Theory

    The Egg Theory

    I came across this gem ages ago and still love to read it once in a while. I’ve also provided an animated YouTube video that goes along with it. Sometimes, I ponder what the point of everything is, what are we even doing, and other such life and purpose related things. As such… this one…

  • Coping Mechanisms

    Coping Mechanisms

    Sometimes, mindless tasks help distract my brain from the overwhelming pressure and weight of my TRMDD/Anhedonia. Sunday night, everything bottomed out and I’ve been stuck cycling between Apathy, Numbness, and bouts of Dissociation (also coping mechanisms) for a solid 48 hours, as of last night. When it gets like this, I have zero motivation to…

  • Lending & Losing

    Lending & Losing

    Granny Sidhé: “Never lend more than you’re willing to lose.” Gah, it’s been ages since she uttered this phrase, but it’s stuck with me all this time. Back then, it was a matter of money, but nowadays I ponder what other aspects you could give and (willingly?) lose – like time and love.

  • Monday Mark – 5.5 & 6.0

    Monday Mark – 5.5 & 6.0

    5.5 – For Last Week’s MM: “The happiest people are not the ones with the most options, but the ones who are most satisfied with their choices.” It’s interesting that satisfaction can beget happiness. I remember what that was like. Currently, the best I can get with that is “contentment.” I suppose that’s more positive than…

  • Thank you, Brain!

    Thank you, Brain!

    Last night, I stayed up far too late playing Valheim and had difficulties falling asleep, thinking about what to write for my blog this morning. Then, for reasons beyond my comprehension, I fell asleep thinking that I didn’t need to worry about it (though I DO have a fantastic topic) because it would be Monday…

  • Drawing a Blank – A Haiku

    Drawing a Blank – A Haiku

    I’m drawing a blankI can’t seem to find the wordsBrain is exhaustedThe cat bapped my faceI got up way to earlyDid not sleep enoughChilly morning breezeWith my brand new “walky” polesLeft hip is a bitchGoing round the lapSay “Morning” to the strangerPassing in moon lightWait, rest at the benchFinally we’re heading homeHip screams, “Please just…

  • The Downward Spiral

    The Downward Spiral

    Yesterday, as The Boyfriend recovered from… stuff… I messaged (he was upstairs) and asked if anything was the matter, pointing out that he seemed distant. He didn’t answer, so I went outside to lay sideways in my hammock and rock myself while I spiraled into the Void of Self-Loathing and Despair. I cried silently, just…