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The Struggle is Real
I’ve recently become aware of a concerning pattern with regards to my mental health. I want to note that awareness (admittance?!) of an issue is the first stepping stone in healing/recovery. This isn’t just my opinion, either. Many programs and therapists and all that know that figuring out what the problem is and admitting it…
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The Constant Battle
I am cowering in the trenches, covered in mud and sweat, the efforts of this fight having taxed me beyond my capacity. My eyelids clench shut as another wave of darkness howls over my head, whipping my hair and clothes in a torrent that drags on for what feels like hours. Despite my closed eyes,…
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Infidelity & Inequity
I am a fairly patient, considerate, and understanding woman. I’ve been through the ringer far too much for one person. I look back at my life and wonder what sort of Karmic Justice I’ve enacted with as much shit as I’ve had to endure, but the fact is… I’m a pretty good egg. I don’t…
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Thank you, Brain!
Last night, I stayed up far too late playing Valheim and had difficulties falling asleep, thinking about what to write for my blog this morning. Then, for reasons beyond my comprehension, I fell asleep thinking that I didn’t need to worry about it (though I DO have a fantastic topic) because it would be Monday…
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Bittersweet Purgatory
Well, at least the featured AI pic is cool. So Sayeth the Google: Purgatory is a Roman Catholic doctrine describing a post-death process of purification for souls that are not yet perfect enough to enter heaven. Souls in purgatory are in God’s friendship but must be cleansed of attachment to sin before they can reach God’s presence. This…
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Intrusive Thoughts
So Sayeth the Google (and it’s a lot of good info): Intrusive thoughts are unwanted, unwelcome, and often disturbing thoughts, images, or urges that pop into one’s mind without warning. They are common, and while often distressing, they are not typically harmful or indicative of mental illness. However, when these thoughts become persistent, intrusive, and lead to…
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They Used To
So… I’d like to raise more awareness of what Anhedonia is. This prompt helps because I CAN list 30 things (I think?!), but due to Anhedonia, the title is necessary: “They Used To [Make Me Happy]” We’ll start with the physical shite I can’t (or almost can’t) do any more… Damn, this is feckin hard,…
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Well… Damn 😥
The Boyfriend is doing individual therapy and I think that’s fantastic. He had a session yesterday while I was at my Trauma-Informed Yoga Therapy, sweating to death with the effort of doing movements that seem like a penance compared to what I used to be able to do many moons ago when I was in…
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Ugh. Mondays.
Welp… I’m honestly at a loss for words (I’m sure that will improve). All I really want to do at this point is curl up and succumb to a permanent nap. Hard truths… I do want my suffering to end, I just don’t have the balls to make that happen. Probably for the best, I…
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Instrumental?!
I write this as I am listening to one of my newest favorite songs: I plan to insert links to some music that I have saved specifically on my desktop. It was difficult to come up with a good title this time because I like a LOT of different genres of music. I often say…
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I’m Tired
I did a “Life Update” on my FB this morning… this is the way I used to journal, once in a blue moon. It isn’t consistent, but sometimes I just throw a bit out there because everything gets to be too much and I need an outlet. Such is the same this morning, except this…
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Day 9-10-11
Sunday, we went to the beach (2nd beach trip). It was exhausting, but I got more shells, so there’s that. Took a nap when we got back, then kidnapped the Daughter of Friend for a tie-dye Pride thing. That was fun. Talked with Granny Sídhe Monday. Loved hearing about the Minecraft shenanigans, even if the…
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