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  • Day 9-10-11

    Day 9-10-11

    Sunday, we went to the beach (2nd beach trip). It was exhausting, but I got more shells, so there’s that. Took a nap when we got back, then kidnapped the Daughter of Friend for a tie-dye Pride thing. That was fun. Talked with Granny Sídhe Monday. Loved hearing about the Minecraft shenanigans, even if the…

  • Day 6-7

    Day 6-7

    Despite currently doing the Thing, I decided to go ahead with the IFS/EMDR therapy… I mean, it’s telehealth, so why not?! I had to reschedule from Tuesday to Thursday because the Tuesday stuff made it not possible. All the same, it was rough (as usual). Discovering inner parts of myself that have been stuffed away…

  • Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder

    Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder

    First, I want to invite you to check out Shawn Coss and his artwork. The featured picture is his adaptation of Major Depressive Disorder. When I first saw it, I loved it so much that I bought a large print and put it in a frame. It’s so fucking accurate with how this feels that…

  • Impossible Tasks

    Impossible Tasks

    There are too many articles out there that cover this, so I don’t plan to link anything specific (this time). The Boyfriend did make a valid observation recently, though – that I probably need to start citing the resources where I get some of my material, just in case. Buuuuuut… most of it is just…

  • Mood

    Mood

    Today has been rough. I cried myself to sleep last night, which made the mild headache I had turn into a severe one by morning. I’m only just getting to where I feel like posting aaaaand… don’t really have much I want to say, so I’m going to provide GIFs for my mood instead…

  • The Weight of Depression

    The Weight of Depression

    Today, I’ll share a journal entry I created 5 years ago, that still applies. It’s a very apt description of how depression feels physically for me. August 3rd, 2020 Have you ever been buried in sand? Imagine one of those random beach days, the sun shining, clouds drifting by lazily, the sound of the gentle…

  • The Good, the Bad, the UGLY

    The Good, the Bad, the UGLY

    In my last post, I talked about trauma, what it is, the types, and examples of most of what I’ve had to endure on that front. Today – even though I have a couple other things I REALLY want to get off my chest (and maybe I will later?!) – I will divulge how all…

  • The “Slow” Descent

    The “Slow” Descent

    I want my “normal” depression back… If you’ve made it this far into my blog, having read most/all of what came before, you have a decent idea of the severity of my mental health as it stands now, and a relative peek into why (see: The Plague). But for shits and giggles, I’ll put the…

  • It’s the Little Things

    It’s the Little Things

    Life has a way of showing up in varying degrees of defining moments. Sometimes, these moments are “good” and have a positive effect. But a lot of times, life hits you in the gut and it sucks whale anus, leaving painful ripples behind for much longer than we’d like. Ah, yes… good ole’ Van Damme.…