Tag: life

  • The “Slow” Descent

    The “Slow” Descent

    I want my “normal” depression back… If you’ve made it this far into my blog, having read most/all of what came before, you have a decent idea of the severity of my mental health as it stands now, and a relative peek into why (see: The Plague). But for shits and giggles, I’ll put the…

  • It’s the Little Things

    It’s the Little Things

    Life has a way of showing up in varying degrees of defining moments. Sometimes, these moments are “good” and have a positive effect. But a lot of times, life hits you in the gut and it sucks whale anus, leaving painful ripples behind for much longer than we’d like. Ah, yes… good ole’ Van Damme.…

  • The Plague

    The Plague

    This one is going to be ROUGH, folks. Fair warning, most of it will be a recounting of the abuse I endured as a child. “The Plague” is the (very apt) nickname I’ve given to my biological “father” – because he doesn’t deserve to be called a father/dad, or considered anything but a toxic Monster…

  • Cyborg Card Revoked

    Cyborg Card Revoked

    Welp… it’s official. Surgery happened this morning, and I had my Spinal Cord Stimulator (Cyborg Parts) taken out. My Cyborg Card has been revoked. I can’t say I’m sad about the actual device being removed, given that it never worked at the efficiency it was purported to… pretty disappointing, honestly. This is one of the…

  • Cats & Anhedonia

    Cats & Anhedonia

    “A cat has absolute emotional honesty: human beings, for one reason or another, may hide their feelings, but a cat does not.” – Ernest Hemingway Cats are, hands down, my favorite “domesticated” (I quote bc 😆, riiiiight) animal. I have loved cats since the first one – which I named Tinkerbell – when I was…

  • Ugh :| Surgery, Again…

    Ugh :| Surgery, Again…

    Today was my Pre-Op Testing for my pending Cyborg Parts removal surgery (this coming Monday, the 21st). In medical terms, I’m having the previously installed Spinal Cord Stimulator (leads and battery) removed.

  • Love Myself… First?!

    Love Myself… First?!

    A theme I’ve been seeing a lot lately is that one must “love themselves first” before they can love anyone else… and there sure are a lot of fancy quotes floating around out there that reinforce this…