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Forgetful
Does childhood trauma cause forgetfulness? Yes, childhood trauma can cause memory loss, including fragmented memories, gaps in time, and a general difficulty recalling past events. This often happens due to the brain’s use of dissociation as a defense mechanism to cope with overwhelming stress, which can disconnect a person from their experiences, making it hard to form and retain memories. …
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Down in the Dumps
Once again, things got rough between myself and The Boyfriend. Last night’s check-in was going well… until it wasn’t. This incident with his ex texting and him choosing to respond at all has really lit the flames of discourse between us. I asked if he still had any resentment about the situation (bc I was…
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Monday Mark – 11.5 & 12.0
11.5 – For Last Week’s MM: There are two fundamental skills in life:1) Focus on what you can control.2) Let go of the rest. Ask yourself: on your deathbed, will you regret doing/not doing it? Then act accordingly What’s one thing you’re stressing about that you have no control over? What could you change that’s within your control?…
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Arkansas – Day 1
3a.m. alarm goes off. Drag myself out of bed and take an entire 30 minute shower. Get dressed in the cool new outfit I got last night, discover that the over-sized “Stranger Things” shirt has FRIGGIN POCKETS DUDE! And that’s about as good as it got, no lie. The Boyfriend dropped me off around 4a.m.-ish,…
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Ready, Set, GO!
My trip to visit Arkansas starts tomorrow. Am I packed? Nope. Who actually packs early?! Not this chick. I wait until the very last minute and do a frantic throwing together of all the things and hope I didn’t forget something important. Hehe. (Edit/Side Note: Flight leaves at 6am, which means going to bed SUPER…
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Monday Mark – 10.5 & 11.0
10.5 – For Last Week’s MM: The only way to feel better about yourself is to do things worth feeling good about. Self-love is a form of action, not merely a belief. You can’t think your way into a better life, you have to live it. What have you done recently that’s worth feeling good about? How did…
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3 Wishes
Honestly, I haven’t given this much thought lately, as life has a way of slapping your face with reality and occupying the mind in ways that make “wishful thinking” extremely difficult. But… I’ll do my best! My first wish is something I’ve honed to perfection over the years, as it is the epitome of “If…
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Minecrack
Last night, when we went to bed (together, bc not a work night), I gained some weird tickle in my throat that caused me to cough at irregular intervals. It was so bad that tears and snot started to leak. I had to sit up to wipe my face and blow my nose. The Boyfriend…
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The Journey Begins
I had a bit of an emotional rollercoaster yesterday, starting quite early. On Monday, I casually mentioned that we were in the process of signing up for the Recovery Program (RP for short) for The Boyfriend’s addiction. As part of my morning routine, I check our accounts and adjust the budget accordingly (ah yes, this…
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Monday Mark – 9.5 & 10.0
9.5 – For Last Week’s MM: You don’t build resilience by feeling good all the time.You build resilience by getting better at feeling bad. To deny pain is to deny our own potential growth. How good are you at feeling bad? What pain might you be denying? Pick one thing you’re willing to feel bad about,…
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Infidelity & Inequity
I am a fairly patient, considerate, and understanding woman. I’ve been through the ringer far too much for one person. I look back at my life and wonder what sort of Karmic Justice I’ve enacted with as much shit as I’ve had to endure, but the fact is… I’m a pretty good egg. I don’t…
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Monday Mark – 8.5 & 9.0
8.5 – For Last Week’s MM: When have you caught yourself living for the emotional scraps of strangers’ opinions? What did it cost you? What would living for yourself look like instead? I used to be really bad about wanting approval from other people. I suppose that’s a byproduct of the trauma that was my entire…
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