27.5 – For Last Week’s MM:

Accept this: You don’t have to prove anything to anybody, ever.

Including yourself.

The moment you stop asking for permission is when you realize it was never required.

What have you been trying to prove lately? Whose permission do you seek?

Pick one small decision you’ve been waiting for permission to make. Make it—and resist the urge to explain yourself. Let me know how it goes.

I’d like to say that I don’t feel like I have to prove anything to anyone, but I’d be lying. I CAN say that I’ve done fairly well at practicing NOT having to prove things to others over the last few years, but the struggle is real, y’all. It’s not a walk in the park. As for proving things to myself… chronic pain and anhedonia have pretty well kicked that in the balls – repeatedly – so I have lost that aspect. Probly not a bad thing.

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28.0 – Your Inaction Is a Choice

Two things for you to think about

The cost of inaction is often much higher than the cost of the wrong action.

When you can’t decide, ask yourself: Which option minimizes future regrets?

Then do that.

Reflect: Then consider sharing this thought with others.

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Two things for you to ask yourself

What part of your life is on autopilot because you’re afraid of choosing wrong? What are you actively avoiding by not deciding?

Recommended: Use these as journaling prompts for the week.

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One thing for you to try this week

Make a decision that can’t be undone. Send the message, start the draft, cancel the thing. Then let me know what happens.

Remember: Small changes lead to lasting breakthroughs.

https://markmanson.net/

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As for how I’m doing… blegh. What started as a “benign” tickle in my throat on Wednesday evening became a cough that made my throat sore and a full-blown (but mild) cold the next day. And I’ve been suffering it since. It hasn’t been that bad, as far as colds or other sicknesses I’ve endured. Low grade fever, never above 100.6. Most of the suffering has been the mouth-breathing necessary to get oxygen. And I’ve done fuck-all, really. Haven’t wanted to do anything, beyond how I normally don’t want to do anything… except now I have a valid “reason” for resting. Today, I was able to shower and drank some good, hot tea (Elderberry and Echinacea) that has helped mostly clear my sinuses out. Being able to breathe out of both nostrils at the same time is quite a relief. Hopefully, I’m on the path to recovery.

Either way, one week left until I start Ketamine therapy. Don’t feel as nervous as I did, more feeling like, “Ugh, is it time yet?!” Because I’m ready to get it going and see what happens. Hopefully, all the good things, yeah?