28.5 – For Last Week’s MM:

The cost of inaction is often much higher than the cost of the wrong action.

When you can’t decide, ask yourself: Which option minimizes future regrets?

What part of your life is on autopilot because you’re afraid of choosing wrong? What are you actively avoiding by not deciding?

Make a decision that can’t be undone. Send the message, start the draft, cancel the thing.

I wrote an email to The Boyfriend after the huge argument we had last week… well, more like 2 arguments and lots of stonewalling on his part, crying on mine. I did consider not sending it, just because I really needed more of a cathartic writing than anything else. And, after finally choosing to send it, I discovered some shite that ultimately led me to confront him about 3 incidents regarding his addiction (women can be highly motivated investigators sometimes). Turns out, ALL THREE were Relapses.

Fantastic.

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29.0 – Your Goals Are Overrated

One thing for you to think about

Goals are the actions you think about but don’t do.
Habits are the actions you do but don’t think about.

Better goals require a lot of effort and change little.
Better habits will change everything.

Reflect: Then consider sharing this thought with others.

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Two things for you to ask yourself

What do you already do that moves you towards your goals? What moves you further from them?

Recommended: Use these as journaling prompts for the week.

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One thing for you to try this week

Instead of setting a new goal this week, change one small habit—when you work, what you eat, how you rest—and notice what happens.

Reply and let me know.

Remember: Small changes lead to lasting breakthroughs.

https://markmanson.net/

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As for how I’m doing… Well, I’m late posting this, mostly because the day went by fairly quickly, but also because I start Ketamine therapy tomorrow. I’m not sure what I’ll be able or motivated to do for the next couple weeks. Suffice it to say, this past week has been utter shite and I had to spend all day today fighting off the Void of Despair in preparation for therapies.

Tomorrow, my “intention” is to take a vacation from my mind and body, as the intake lady suggested. EMDR is bumped to Wednesday. That and the following 5 Ketamine therapies, I plan to do my best to “heal” my Anhedonia… or, kick it’s ass, as I’ve been saying lately. I don’t know if that will happen or how I plan to go about guiding my brain to it, but I’m going to give it the best shot I can and see what happens.

Hopefully, I’ll have some good results to talk about later on.

Wish me luck!