32.5 – For Last Week’s MM:
Your life simply reflects what you’ve prioritized.
What you’ve achieved tells you what you were willing to suffer for.
What you failed at tells you the opposite.What does your life tell you about your priorities? Do you wish it were different?
Pick one small action that reflects the priorities you want, and go do it. Let me know how that feels.
The best example of what I “failed” (wasn’t willing to suffer for) at is the career I had at Spirit Cars. I started as a “toilet scrubber” with 10 weeks to prove my value. I was tasked with the parts room/inventory and getting it all organized and structured in a way that gave the company a better knowledge of what they had on hand, what needed to be ordered, etc. I did this in 7 weeks, got hired on officially and a raise at that time, and another 3 weeks later at the original deadline. I learned how to use QuickBooks within a short time after being hired, and organized THAT giant clusterf*ck, as well. I became the liaison for important clients, went and learned about work flow from someone successful nearby, applied that knowledge to our company, and built great rapport with the employees in the shop.
Thing is… the two men that had been “doing this for 30 years” or whatever? They kept doing the types of things that made them suffer losses and angry customers. I realized (too late) that my attempts to make things run smoothly fell on deaf ears and the skeletons underneath the surface of what I’d scratched were insurmountable. I wrote myself an angry email at work detailing all the things I suspected (I know, stupid move) and got sick. When I returned, that email was printed out for “the boss” to explain away the things I suspected (b.s., really) and following that? Every morning for 3 solid weeks, he would come in and yell at me for half an hour. And I would cry when he left my office, compose myself, and continue to do my job. But… I could not suffer that any longer and I packed my shit and quit, handing my keys to the boss and telling him he won.
This is a watered down and shorter version, but… you get the gist.
I don’t regret taking myself out of that toxic environment, but damn do I wish I could work in that specific industry again, with a brand new factory/employees, and put them out of business.
33.0 – Planning Isn’t Progress
Two things for you to think about
The people who wait until they’re “ready” never are. The people who just start realize they could have been “ready” any time they wanted.
At some point, preparation becomes its own form of procrastination.
Just do the thing.
Reflect: Then consider sharing this thought with others.
Two things for you to ask yourself
What have you been preparing for longer than you’d like to admit? What if you just started?
Recommended: Use these as journaling prompts for the week.
One thing for you to try this week
Start the thing you’ve been preparing for. Note how that makes you feel, and reply to let me know.
Remember: Small changes lead to lasting breakthroughs.
As for how I’m doing… I feel like I’m mostly back to my normal baseline before Ketamine. There’s still some residual improvement, but I want it to be better than this. Thankfully, I was able to get an appointment sooner than 6 weeks out (this Friday, actually) to start my Maintenance phase. Things have been okay with The Boyfriend and doing Program work, even though I still feel like he dragged his feet for 5 of the 6 months we were allotted to get the whole thing done. We’re coming up on Disclosure stuff, too. It’s a huge undertaking, but I’m really not too bothered by what might come of that on his end. I think, mostly, because what else could there possibly be left to confess that would really surprise or hurt me, ya know? I guess we’ll find out when the time comes, but… it is what it is. I just hope that he can be completely transparent and we can have a clean slate.
Who IS EnchiPants?! 