Category: Daily Blog

  • Jealousy

    Jealousy

    The Boyfriend went to a mandatory work-at-a-store thing yesterday and then a “work” lunch afterwards. As part of the day’s events, 2 of his coworkers planned to come by after to play card/board games. However, 3 more tagged along. Two of them I know, and the new hire that he’s personally training. I’ve previously asked…

  • Monday Mark – 18.5 & 19.0

    Monday Mark – 18.5 & 19.0

    17.5 – For Last Week’s MM: People don’t burn out from doing too much. They burn out from doing too little of what matters. The only thing worse than failing at something meaningful is succeeding at something meaningless. Think of your most recent success. Was it meaningful? If it wasn’t, what do you wish you’d tried…

  • 1982

    1982

    I don’t know a lot about what happened the year I was born, given that I was born IN that year, and thus a newborn with zero cognitive abilities beyond my immediate environment. Hell, my earliest memories hail from a couple years past that. However, Google knows a LOT. And is it just me, or…

  • It’s a Slippery Slope

    It’s a Slippery Slope

    Recovery from Addiction is a mountainous climb that involves many treacherous situations. One wrong move and you’re sliding down that slippery slope back to the bottom. I’m addicted to nicotine, but I won’t say that I fully understand other addictions. I believe I have a good enough grasp of it, based on the research and…

  • Fell Off the Wagon

    Fell Off the Wagon

    Missed a couple days in journal blogging this week. I haven’t been feeling as good mentally/emotionally as I had when the Fog of Emotional Flatlining finally lifted last week. Been in a “fuck it” and play Enshrouded kinda mood. Yesterday’s couple’s counseling and last night’s check-in were both fairly rough for me. I’m trying my…

  • Jim

    Jim

    Growing up, I didn’t have much in the way of “positively impactful” male role models. I didn’t get to spend much time with my maternal grandfather (Papa) – who was a great man – as far as I can remember (he passed when I was 13). And when I did (summers in Colorado), it was…

  • Monday Mark – 17.5 & 18.0

    Monday Mark – 17.5 & 18.0

    17.5 – For Last Week’s MM: When people ask, “What is my life purpose?” What they’re actually asking without realizing it is: “How can I use my time in a way that feels meaningful?” You don’t find your purpose.You build your purpose, experiment by experiment, mistake by mistake. What do you spend your time on that feels meaningful?…

  • Wild Animals

    Wild Animals

    I want to go two ways with this, lol. Literal and conceptual. Given that I live in the suburbs of Colorado Springs, the most I can hope to see as far as “wild” animals is concerned is… squirrels. And they’re brave little shits, too. They stand on the wooden fence in the back yard and…

  • Xmas Season… ugh

    Xmas Season… ugh

    A year ago, I was in the throes of questioning my ability to make good choices when it came to men (a repeating pattern, unfortunately), wallowing in mountains of self-pity, severely beating myself up for being utterly stupid – yet again – for falling for sweet words and promises that turned out to be lies,…

  • It’s Snowing…

    It’s Snowing…

    Today, I have three appointments: regular therapy, ObGyn, and Podiatrist. Thankfully, regular therapy is Telehealth, so I don’t have to do the required driving (13 miles) for that. However… I do have to venture out into this weather for my ObGyn (3.5 miles) and Podiatrist (1.4 miles), so it’s not too bad, but still… I’ll…

  • Integrity

    Integrity

    I pondered this question for a short while, considering empathy, honesty, openness, and kindness as my answers. And then it dawned on me that ALL of these things can be wrapped neatly into: INTEGRITY. What does it mean to have integrity? To have integrity means to be honest, morally upright, and consistent in your actions by…

  • Monday Mark – 16.5 & 17.0

    Monday Mark – 16.5 & 17.0

    16.5 – For Last Week’s MM: Everything good comes to an end.Learn from it. Grow from it. Be grateful for it. Everything bad comes to an end.Learn from it. Grow from it. Be grateful for it. What’s something good in your life that ended? What did you learn? What’s something bad in your life that ended?…