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  • Arkansas – Day 1

    Arkansas – Day 1

    3a.m. alarm goes off. Drag myself out of bed and take an entire 30 minute shower. Get dressed in the cool new outfit I got last night, discover that the over-sized “Stranger Things” shirt has FRIGGIN POCKETS DUDE! And that’s about as good as it got, no lie. The Boyfriend dropped me off around 4a.m.-ish,…

  • Ready, Set, GO!

    Ready, Set, GO!

    My trip to visit Arkansas starts tomorrow. Am I packed? Nope. Who actually packs early?! Not this chick. I wait until the very last minute and do a frantic throwing together of all the things and hope I didn’t forget something important. Hehe. (Edit/Side Note: Flight leaves at 6am, which means going to bed SUPER…

  • Monday Mark – 10.5 & 11.0

    Monday Mark – 10.5 & 11.0

    10.5 – For Last Week’s MM: The only way to feel better about yourself is to do things worth feeling good about. Self-love is a form of action, not merely a belief. You can’t think your way into a better life, you have to live it. What have you done recently that’s worth feeling good about? How did…

  • 3 Wishes

    3 Wishes

    Honestly, I haven’t given this much thought lately, as life has a way of slapping your face with reality and occupying the mind in ways that make “wishful thinking” extremely difficult. But… I’ll do my best! My first wish is something I’ve honed to perfection over the years, as it is the epitome of “If…

  • Minecrack

    Minecrack

    Last night, when we went to bed (together, bc not a work night), I gained some weird tickle in my throat that caused me to cough at irregular intervals. It was so bad that tears and snot started to leak. I had to sit up to wipe my face and blow my nose. The Boyfriend…

  • The Journey Begins

    The Journey Begins

    I had a bit of an emotional rollercoaster yesterday, starting quite early. On Monday, I casually mentioned that we were in the process of signing up for the Recovery Program (RP for short) for The Boyfriend’s addiction. As part of my morning routine, I check our accounts and adjust the budget accordingly (ah yes, this…

  • Monday Mark – 9.5 & 10.0

    Monday Mark – 9.5 & 10.0

    9.5 – For Last Week’s MM: You don’t build resilience by feeling good all the time.You build resilience by getting better at feeling bad. To deny pain is to deny our own potential growth. How good are you at feeling bad? What pain might you be denying? Pick one thing you’re willing to feel bad about,…

  • Infidelity & Inequity

    Infidelity & Inequity

    I am a fairly patient, considerate, and understanding woman. I’ve been through the ringer far too much for one person. I look back at my life and wonder what sort of Karmic Justice I’ve enacted with as much shit as I’ve had to endure, but the fact is… I’m a pretty good egg. I don’t…

  • Monday Mark – 8.5 & 9.0

    Monday Mark – 8.5 & 9.0

    8.5 – For Last Week’s MM: When have you caught yourself living for the emotional scraps of strangers’ opinions? What did it cost you? What would living for yourself look like instead? I used to be really bad about wanting approval from other people. I suppose that’s a byproduct of the trauma that was my entire…

  • Consideration

    Consideration

    Something I’ve had on my mind for a while is “consideration.” It seems like a really simple thing to carry out in relationships, but if you really think about it, how often do people actually show consideration for others? How often do you consider others in your daily life? More often than not, I see…

  • Monday Mark – 7.5 & 8.0

    Monday Mark – 7.5 & 8.0

    7.5 – For Last Week’s MM: You’re not afraid of failing. You’re afraid of being seen failing. Most people aren’t paying attention to what you’re doing, and your loudest critics are probably too scared to try. What are you so worried about? While I was growing up, failure (as seen by my father – “The Plague”) was…

  • ADHD Research – Phase 3

    ADHD Research – Phase 3

    On the heels of my previous two ADHD Research Phases, armed with inspiration and validation from WearsTwoGowns (thank you so much!), I’m going to dive further into the possible connection between my cPTSD (diagnosed currently as PTSD) – i.e. lifetime of trauma – and the The Pituitary Gland. Or, as I like to call it……