2.5 – For Last Week’s MM:
I actually ponder “trust” and all that entails quite frequently. You see, The Boyfriend broke my trust as early on as last October, though I didn’t know the full extent of it – especially the “wtf is going on” part – until this past February. The consequences of realizing my entire relationship was – I’ll be blunt – a lie, along everything else surrounding the discovery of his addiction… resulted in Betrayal Trauma so fierce that I finally acquired a PTSD diagnosis and am now in 3 different types of therapy specifically tailored to trauma. So, I know very well how easily and quickly trust can be broken.
Mark asks: “In what ways do you potentially put years of trust at risk? Is it worth it?”
I do know that one of the ways I approach things with people I love and care about has the potential to destroy trust – but it is very much worth the risk. I am open and honest, truthful with relaying my thoughts and opinions. If someone is brave enough to ask me something, I will give my full attention and truthfulness to answering – even when that answer might potentially suck/hurt. To me, one of the most true forms of love is honesty, even in the face of adversity and the possibility that the other party won’t receive it very well. I strive NOT to break trust because it isn’t worth it. However (and this is a rough one), I can’t control how others react/respond. I can tailor my honesty with kindness, but in the end, how someone receives that is completely out of my control.
As for deepening trust with one specific relationship… I already and actively do this with The Boyfriend as much as I am able. I also went with my mom to her Cardiology appointment last Tuesday, which – I admit – I didn’t need to, but… I want her to know that she has my love and support, especially with something as serious as an ablation surgery on her heart.
3.0 – You Have a Say Over Your Pain
Two things for you to think about
The pain you feel isn’t just from what happened to you, it’s from what you tell yourself about it.
Choose the story that helps you heal more.
In other words: pain is inevitable; suffering is optional.
Reflect: Then consider sharing this thought with others.
Two things for you to ask yourself
What story have you been telling yourself that adds suffering to your pain? What story can you tell instead?
Recommended: Use these as journaling prompts for the week.
One thing for you to try this week
Reframe the story around your pain. Let me know how it goes.
Remember: Small changes lead to lasting breakthroughs.
Oof. These one’s are gonna be rough, I can already tell.
As for today… Walkies were aight. We do 2 days in a row and take a break day between the next 2. Feckin Mondays, though, ya know?
Who IS EnchiPants?! 
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