EnchiPants: a blog about the traumatic life of a nerdy girl who grew into a broken woman
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Patience is…
Exhausting. Frustrating. Disappointing. Unfulfilling. “Patience is a virtue” – William Langland circa 1360 (poem: Piers Plowman) Patience is considered a virtue because it allows individuals to endure difficulties, delays, or challenges without becoming anxious or reactive. It fosters inner strength, sound judgment, and better decision-making, ultimately leading to greater success and well-being. (so says Google AI) Yep. I…
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Impossible Tasks
There are too many articles out there that cover this, so I don’t plan to link anything specific (this time). The Boyfriend did make a valid observation recently, though – that I probably need to start citing the resources where I get some of my material, just in case. Buuuuuut… most of it is just…
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The Spoon Theory
Aight, where my fellow Spoonies at?! 😛 The Spoon Theory written by Christine Miserandino is a good one, folks. It’s been around for a long while now and made the rounds, but… totally worth going over again – or at all, if you haven’t already heard about or read it. I’ll quote Ms. Miserandino and…
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Braaaains…
In the interest of continuing to make this blog a “morning routine” – todays is gonna be a fairly short one (hopefully?!) and I want to share a couple of images that I have on my desktop… cuz I’m funny and weird. Weirdly funny?! 😛 As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, I am a whore…
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I’m a Xennial
Of course I remember life before the internet. I was born in 1982 and adhere very strongly to being both Gen-X and a Millennial – as my title says, a “Xennial.” So yeah. I’m old. I remember playing outside all the time: enacting whatever fantasies my brain could think up, swimming in clear creeks and…
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Dragging. Ass.
Lmao. Ok, this is one of those times when the AI completely failed at depicting the “ambiance” of what I’m going for with JUST my title, so… I kept it. I’m also going to include the wording it came up with because omfg the irony… Create a highly detailed, high-resolution image of a humorous cartoon…
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Random Ramblings…
The weight of my thoughts traps me in a downward spiral that I have to ride until it’s over because I’m not able to just climb off and go about living. The stress of merely existing keeps me anchored wherever I am, either with wholly dissociating or mindlessly Doom Scrolling. The Boyfriend went to bed…
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Elephants!
First, I have to admit that I am really enjoying the ability to AI generate my cover pics. I find it fascinating that I can put my title in and – with a couple clicks – it comes up with something really cool, buuuuut… sometimes, not so much (why that lady has 7 fingers?!) and…
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Understanding Addiction
Whew… Addiction [to any/all manner of things] runs rampant the world over, so I KNOW this one is going to hit a lot of people really hard – whether you have an addiction(s) or a loved one (like me, thrice over) does. But, I deeply understand. You are not alone. And… in the off chance…
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Self-Reflection
Disclaimer: Talks of Unaliving Over my lifetime, I’ve had many moments of self-reflection. I say moments, but sometimes they’re more than that. Sometimes, I spend hours thinking about who I am and who I want to be. Sometimes, life throws things at me that hit so hard that I can’t help but ruminate on them…
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Mood
Today has been rough. I cried myself to sleep last night, which made the mild headache I had turn into a severe one by morning. I’m only just getting to where I feel like posting aaaaand… don’t really have much I want to say, so I’m going to provide GIFs for my mood instead…
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The Weight of Depression
Today, I’ll share a journal entry I created 5 years ago, that still applies. It’s a very apt description of how depression feels physically for me. August 3rd, 2020 Have you ever been buried in sand? Imagine one of those random beach days, the sun shining, clouds drifting by lazily, the sound of the gentle…
The Journey of a Thousand Miles Begins with One Step – Lao Tzu
From the: Tao te Ching
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