EnchiPants: a blog about the traumatic life of a nerdy girl who grew into a broken woman
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I Have Bad Taste in Men
I hate the phrase “daddy issues,” but… even though it’s more often derogatory than not, it exists with a specific – vaild?! – meaning (still hate it). The term implies that a woman may have difficulty trusting men, forming healthy relationships, or setting boundaries, potentially due to past experiences with her father, which can lead…
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Sacrifices… bleh
Lordt… aside from the traumas, sacrifices are another ginormous list of things I’ve had too much of in my life 😅 I lost parts of myself along the way to The Plague, Gravity, The Dementor, and various other “adults” that came and went. So, I suppose the biggest sacrifice I made was my sense of…
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Happy Mother’s Day!
It’s another first without my kiddo… Granted… he IS 19 now, but… it’s different for us. He was diagnosed with autism at 2.5 years old. Back then, he was on the cusp between severe and moderate autism. Non-verbal, frequent meltdowns, stimming… I won’t mince words, it was fucking hard those first few years. I don’t…
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Oof… Freedom, eh?!
This is a bit of a tough one, because it can mean a plethora of things to each one of the billions of people on this fucked up planet. But, of course, the ask is for what it means to ME… And theeeeeen… my ADHD brain wants to categorize all the different “types” of freedom…
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The Good, the Bad, the UGLY
In my last post, I talked about trauma, what it is, the types, and examples of most of what I’ve had to endure on that front. Today – even though I have a couple other things I REALLY want to get off my chest (and maybe I will later?!) – I will divulge how all…
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My Brain on Trauma
My life has been chock full of hardships. There’s so much of it that it’s really difficult for me to know where to start, what to cover, HOW to cover everything, and a plethora of other hurdles. The struggle is real, y’all (ew… the Arkansas came out there, my bad). And before I proceed, I’m…
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It’s Muh Birfday :P
Fourty. Three. Yeah. I know… it can seem SUPER old to the behbeh’s out there, who are probably close to the same age as my SON (19). And to the Boomers and Beyond, I guess I’m some sort of Spring Chicken?! But for me… I feel like I’m about 80 years old. I’ve experienced too…
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A Mother’s Confession
In my therapeutic journey, I’ve spent a lot of time and focus on The Plague and everything shitty that’s come from him. His toxic abuse my entire life has overshadowed almost everything else, despite there being plenty of other traumatic things I’ve had to endure… things that will eventually require my attention and some healthy…
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How Friendships Die – Darryl
I have lost many friends in my life. Be it from moving away, drifting apart, death… or – the focus for THIS entry – being completely ghosted out of the blue. And you know… 🤔 as I write this and ponder the many different friends I’ve lost, I realize that I could write a whole…
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May the 4th be With You
Oooooh! I love it when Google does fun things. Star Wars Confetti for the WIN! Here is a very cool article, written by some dude named Andy Restrepo – his picture looks very intriguing. https://en.as.com/latest_news/how-to-respond-to-may-the-fourth-be-with-you-n-2/ I am not a hard-core Star Wars nerd, mind you, but I do enjoy the entirety of it AND grew…
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The War with Empathy
Ah, yes… empathy. I’d like to believe that most people know what it is and have at least a modicum of it in their repertoire. Sadly, experience has told me otherwise. Empathy is defined as: the ability to understand and share the feelings of another. For me… it’s a curse. It has caused me mountains…
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Do I Dare?!
Every once in a while I will participate in the “daily prompt” that WordPress so graciously offers (if it intrigues me :P), but those are most likely going to be a short, sort of one-off entry to get my creative juices flowing. As such, I will most likely write a 2nd entry – provided I…
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