EnchiPants: a blog about the traumatic life of a nerdy girl who grew into a broken woman
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What a Broken Woman Needs
In light of my last post and the event surrounding it, I’ve sat pondering what it is that I truly need. I am the Broken Woman, and have been for decades, despite how much time and effort I’ve put in to fix myself (over and over again), to pick up those repeatedly broken pieces and…
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The Struggle Bus
Sheesh. I really fell off the Journaling/Blog wagon, didn’t I? We’re already on the 4th day of the new year and I’m finally planting my ass in the chair to write. The Struggle Bus has left the station and descended into the Void of Despair. Last night was rough and I wasn’t in a good…
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The Last Day
I honestly don’t remember what we did for New Years last year. It isn’t that we got shitfaced or anything, but things were in so much turmoil between us, it passed by without fanfare and wasn’t committed to memory. I suppose that’s more likely a good thing, given what Xmas and everything around it was…
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HALT
HALT is an acronym my EMDR therapist gave me a while back during one of our sessions. It stands for: It’s used as a self-check tool to help identify basic needs that may require attention and fulfilment. For some reason, I woke up with all four of them. I made it through the cat-swapping and…
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Monday Mark – 20.5 & 21.0
20.5 – For Last Week’s MM: The first rule of dealing with drama: don’t hang around people who are constantly creating drama. The second rule: never forget the first one. Apply the 80/20 rule. Who in your family generates most of the drama? How can you spend less time with them this week? Give yourself permission…
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Let the Past Be a Lesson – Not a Limitation
I definitely spend more of my time thinking about the past. Thinking about the future is difficult for me, because it doesn’t seem very hopeful, given everything currently happening in my life and how I exist. The silver lining? I learn from the past. Sometimes it comes easy and growth happens. Sometimes, I have to…
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Monday Mark – 19.5 & 20.0
19.5 – For Last Week’s MM: The one productivity system that controls all others: your emotions. When you are in love with what you’re doing, everything gets easier.When you hate what you’re doing, no productivity hack will save you. What would it look like if you didn’t hate that thing you’ve been forcing yourself to do?…
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What am I [to you]?
Last night, I asked if you were going to pause the show we were watching (as it was after 9p and you had to work in the morning), except my brain shorted out at, “Are you gonna…” and the words I needed got blown away like a plastic bag in high winds. By the time…
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The Struggle is Real
I’ve recently become aware of a concerning pattern with regards to my mental health. I want to note that awareness (admittance?!) of an issue is the first stepping stone in healing/recovery. This isn’t just my opinion, either. Many programs and therapists and all that know that figuring out what the problem is and admitting it…
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Jealousy
The Boyfriend went to a mandatory work-at-a-store thing yesterday and then a “work” lunch afterwards. As part of the day’s events, 2 of his coworkers planned to come by after to play card/board games. However, 3 more tagged along. Two of them I know, and the new hire that he’s personally training. I’ve previously asked…
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Monday Mark – 18.5 & 19.0
17.5 – For Last Week’s MM: People don’t burn out from doing too much. They burn out from doing too little of what matters. The only thing worse than failing at something meaningful is succeeding at something meaningless. Think of your most recent success. Was it meaningful? If it wasn’t, what do you wish you’d tried…
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1982
I don’t know a lot about what happened the year I was born, given that I was born IN that year, and thus a newborn with zero cognitive abilities beyond my immediate environment. Hell, my earliest memories hail from a couple years past that. However, Google knows a LOT. And is it just me, or…
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