EnchiPants: a blog about the traumatic life of a nerdy girl who grew into a broken woman
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It’s Snowing…
Today, I have three appointments: regular therapy, ObGyn, and Podiatrist. Thankfully, regular therapy is Telehealth, so I don’t have to do the required driving (13 miles) for that. However… I do have to venture out into this weather for my ObGyn (3.5 miles) and Podiatrist (1.4 miles), so it’s not too bad, but still… I’ll…
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Integrity
I pondered this question for a short while, considering empathy, honesty, openness, and kindness as my answers. And then it dawned on me that ALL of these things can be wrapped neatly into: INTEGRITY. What does it mean to have integrity? To have integrity means to be honest, morally upright, and consistent in your actions by…
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Monday Mark – 16.5 & 17.0
16.5 – For Last Week’s MM: Everything good comes to an end.Learn from it. Grow from it. Be grateful for it. Everything bad comes to an end.Learn from it. Grow from it. Be grateful for it. What’s something good in your life that ended? What did you learn? What’s something bad in your life that ended?…
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Doom Scrolling
Yesterday’s Xmas Cookie Making Extravaganza at Mom’s was really hard on my body. I pushed myself too hard and stayed too long. I texted The Boyfriend near the end to let him know how difficult it was and he… offered to have tea and a blanket ready for me for when I got home?! I…
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Stranger Things
I am a LITTLE obsessed with Stranger Things. I have the main theme as an alarm tone. One of my favorite things to wear is an overly large Stranger Things long-sleeve shirt (it has pockets). Since the first half of the newest (and last?!) season dropped over the holiday, I asked The Boyfriend to do…
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Friendsgiving
For many, many moons, I have been participating in “Friendsgiving” instead of Thanksgiving with blood relatives (I choose this terminology because “family” means something different for me). I barely remember the last, official Thanksgiving I went to at Sandy’s (step-grandma). I brought The Son, both my parents and brother were there, and I don’t recall…
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Self Care
This one will be quick and dirty, me thinks. I only have a short time before I have to leave for a doctor’s appointment (why did I make it for 7am?!). Ever since the Ex-Texting Incident – and my subsequent panic attack and many conversations about it – I’ve dropped deeply into “Emotional Flatlining” Mode…
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My Top 3 “Pet Peeves”
Oof. Well, this one is actually turning out to be a bit more in depth than I expected. I’m going to go with the knee-jerk responses, then dive deeper into the underlying problem. 1.) Tailgaters: This does not refer to the people that gather around to let their tailgates down and drink and sing and…
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Monday Mark – 15.5 & 16.0
15.5 – For Last Week’s MM: If you’re not willing to be laughed at, you’ll spend your life clapping for people who were. There are graveyards full of people who constantly told themselves “one day.” What are you avoiding right now because you’re afraid to be laughed at? What would it take to stop saying “one…
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The Constant Battle
I am cowering in the trenches, covered in mud and sweat, the efforts of this fight having taxed me beyond my capacity. My eyelids clench shut as another wave of darkness howls over my head, whipping my hair and clothes in a torrent that drags on for what feels like hours. Despite my closed eyes,…
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Technologia! 😅
I’m starting to feel like one of those “old” people when it comes to handling certain aspects of technology… In one of the recent videos for the Recovery Program, the Founders talked about the monitoring app they recommend and why. The Boyfriend voluntarily suggested we change the one we were using to the one they…
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Mostly?!
I have and continue to struggle to fully accept and trust my instincts. My instincts are consistently at odds with my logical brain and my desire to give people the benefit of the doubt. There have been a few key times in my life where I have listened and fully trusted my instincts, especially regarding…
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