EnchiPants: a blog about the traumatic life of a nerdy girl who grew into a broken woman
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Monday Mark – 12.5 & 13.0
12.5 – For Last Week’s MM: Most “time management” problems are really just fear management problems. Procrastination is merely the avoidance of unpleasant emotions. Get comfortable with unpleasant emotions and procrastination takes care of itself. What unpleasant emotions might you be avoiding in the things you’ve been putting off? That one thing you’ve been procrastinating on?…
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Finally Back Home
Welp… it’s 4-something in the morning, because “Fall Back” Daylight Saving Time (anyone else call it “savings”?!) Shenanigans, and here I am doing a catch-up on my bloggening, after having spent a week and a half in Arkansas. I tried to do it while I was gone, but only managed a couple days of that…
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Monday Mark – 11.5 & 12.0
11.5 – For Last Week’s MM: There are two fundamental skills in life:1) Focus on what you can control.2) Let go of the rest. Ask yourself: on your deathbed, will you regret doing/not doing it? Then act accordingly What’s one thing you’re stressing about that you have no control over? What could you change that’s within your control?…
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Arkansas – Day 2
Yesterday was a day of rest. Not much was done except lazing around and napping. I worked on the Couples Commitment Contract for the Recovery Program, but I struggled pretty hard with it. In past relationships, setting boundaries was met with drastic consequences, like outright rejection or mental/emotional abuse. I wasn’t allowed any kind of…
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Arkansas – Day 1
3a.m. alarm goes off. Drag myself out of bed and take an entire 30 minute shower. Get dressed in the cool new outfit I got last night, discover that the over-sized “Stranger Things” shirt has FRIGGIN POCKETS DUDE! And that’s about as good as it got, no lie. The Boyfriend dropped me off around 4a.m.-ish,…
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Ready, Set, GO!
My trip to visit Arkansas starts tomorrow. Am I packed? Nope. Who actually packs early?! Not this chick. I wait until the very last minute and do a frantic throwing together of all the things and hope I didn’t forget something important. Hehe. (Edit/Side Note: Flight leaves at 6am, which means going to bed SUPER…
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Monday Mark – 10.5 & 11.0
10.5 – For Last Week’s MM: The only way to feel better about yourself is to do things worth feeling good about. Self-love is a form of action, not merely a belief. You can’t think your way into a better life, you have to live it. What have you done recently that’s worth feeling good about? How did…
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3 Wishes
Honestly, I haven’t given this much thought lately, as life has a way of slapping your face with reality and occupying the mind in ways that make “wishful thinking” extremely difficult. But… I’ll do my best! My first wish is something I’ve honed to perfection over the years, as it is the epitome of “If…
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Minecrack
Last night, when we went to bed (together, bc not a work night), I gained some weird tickle in my throat that caused me to cough at irregular intervals. It was so bad that tears and snot started to leak. I had to sit up to wipe my face and blow my nose. The Boyfriend…
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Random Days
Sometimes, I wake up and don’t wanna. I’d rather go back to sleep and say, “Fuck it.” They hit me randomly. Today is one of those days. It also makes it difficult to find anything to write about. Unfortunately, I have commitments – Walkies was one, but The Boyfriend went back to sleep after the…
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The Journey Begins
I had a bit of an emotional rollercoaster yesterday, starting quite early. On Monday, I casually mentioned that we were in the process of signing up for the Recovery Program (RP for short) for The Boyfriend’s addiction. As part of my morning routine, I check our accounts and adjust the budget accordingly (ah yes, this…
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Monday Mark – 9.5 & 10.0
9.5 – For Last Week’s MM: You don’t build resilience by feeling good all the time.You build resilience by getting better at feeling bad. To deny pain is to deny our own potential growth. How good are you at feeling bad? What pain might you be denying? Pick one thing you’re willing to feel bad about,…
The Journey of a Thousand Miles Begins with One Step – Lao Tzu
From the: Tao te Ching
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