EnchiPants: a blog about the traumatic life of a nerdy girl who grew into a broken woman
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Late Today
I was distracted by Minecraft most of the day, but I finished a project I was working on, so there’s that! Had EMDR at 9am. For many weeks, we’ve been working on my earliest remembered trauma (here) – one that was actually repressed for a very long time. And today, the memory and all the…
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Monday Mark – 13.5 & 14.0
13.5 – For Last Week’s MM: Many of us misinterpret our need for strong friendships as a need for a romantic relationship. You can be happy without a partner. You cannot be happy without friends. Do you prioritize romance over friendships? How can you give more attention to your friends? Do something nice with or for…
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Down in the Dumps
Once again, things got rough between myself and The Boyfriend. Last night’s check-in was going well… until it wasn’t. This incident with his ex texting and him choosing to respond at all has really lit the flames of discourse between us. I asked if he still had any resentment about the situation (bc I was…
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Art & Science
I couldn’t pick just one, because both of these classes had a huge impact on me, but in different ways. The subjects themselves were things I loved, but it was the teachers that made the difference. Our school was so small that we had 62 students in our graduating class and I had the same…
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Panic Attack
Yesterday was rough, though it didn’t start out that way… I got up early and did the cat swapping, since we can now get back to the normal routines. Made coffee, got on my PC for blogging, made an adjustment in the video settings of Minecraft, and proceeded to spend the next hour or so…
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Taco Tuesday?!
Me, right now… I really, really didn’t want to get out of bed this morning. Mars was a butt and ran away to hide, because he knows the morning routine means getting put in the basement (lots of room). Over a year and multiple failed attempts to integrate Princess Fluffybutt (also known as Floof) with…
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Monday Mark – 12.5 & 13.0
12.5 – For Last Week’s MM: Most “time management” problems are really just fear management problems. Procrastination is merely the avoidance of unpleasant emotions. Get comfortable with unpleasant emotions and procrastination takes care of itself. What unpleasant emotions might you be avoiding in the things you’ve been putting off? That one thing you’ve been procrastinating on?…
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Finally Back Home
Welp… it’s 4-something in the morning, because “Fall Back” Daylight Saving Time (anyone else call it “savings”?!) Shenanigans, and here I am doing a catch-up on my bloggening, after having spent a week and a half in Arkansas. I tried to do it while I was gone, but only managed a couple days of that…
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Monday Mark – 11.5 & 12.0
11.5 – For Last Week’s MM: There are two fundamental skills in life:1) Focus on what you can control.2) Let go of the rest. Ask yourself: on your deathbed, will you regret doing/not doing it? Then act accordingly What’s one thing you’re stressing about that you have no control over? What could you change that’s within your control?…
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Arkansas – Day 2
Yesterday was a day of rest. Not much was done except lazing around and napping. I worked on the Couples Commitment Contract for the Recovery Program, but I struggled pretty hard with it. In past relationships, setting boundaries was met with drastic consequences, like outright rejection or mental/emotional abuse. I wasn’t allowed any kind of…
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Arkansas – Day 1
3a.m. alarm goes off. Drag myself out of bed and take an entire 30 minute shower. Get dressed in the cool new outfit I got last night, discover that the over-sized “Stranger Things” shirt has FRIGGIN POCKETS DUDE! And that’s about as good as it got, no lie. The Boyfriend dropped me off around 4a.m.-ish,…
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Ready, Set, GO!
My trip to visit Arkansas starts tomorrow. Am I packed? Nope. Who actually packs early?! Not this chick. I wait until the very last minute and do a frantic throwing together of all the things and hope I didn’t forget something important. Hehe. (Edit/Side Note: Flight leaves at 6am, which means going to bed SUPER…
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