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Category: Mental & Physical Health

  • Self Care

    Self Care

    This one will be quick and dirty, me thinks. I only have a short time before I have to leave for a doctor’s appointment (why did I make it for 7am?!). Ever since the Ex-Texting Incident – and my subsequent panic attack and many conversations about it – I’ve dropped deeply into “Emotional Flatlining” Mode…

  • The Constant Battle

    The Constant Battle

    I am cowering in the trenches, covered in mud and sweat, the efforts of this fight having taxed me beyond my capacity. My eyelids clench shut as another wave of darkness howls over my head, whipping my hair and clothes in a torrent that drags on for what feels like hours. Despite my closed eyes,…

  • Forgetful

    Forgetful

    Does childhood trauma cause forgetfulness? Yes, childhood trauma can cause memory loss, including fragmented memories, gaps in time, and a general difficulty recalling past events. This often happens due to the brain’s use of dissociation as a defense mechanism to cope with overwhelming stress, which can disconnect a person from their experiences, making it hard to form and retain memories. …

  • That First Sip

    That First Sip

    One of the small pleasures I have left in life is that first sip of coffee in the morning, just before I come upstairs to blog. Anhedonia has robbed me of so much joy that it’s impossible to find and feel anything positive. Despite that, I do try. I check in with my emotions at…

  • Down in the Dumps

    Down in the Dumps

    Once again, things got rough between myself and The Boyfriend. Last night’s check-in was going well… until it wasn’t. This incident with his ex texting and him choosing to respond at all has really lit the flames of discourse between us. I asked if he still had any resentment about the situation (bc I was…

  • Panic Attack

    Panic Attack

    Yesterday was rough, though it didn’t start out that way… I got up early and did the cat swapping, since we can now get back to the normal routines. Made coffee, got on my PC for blogging, made an adjustment in the video settings of Minecraft, and proceeded to spend the next hour or so…

  • The Journey Begins

    The Journey Begins

    I had a bit of an emotional rollercoaster yesterday, starting quite early. On Monday, I casually mentioned that we were in the process of signing up for the Recovery Program (RP for short) for The Boyfriend’s addiction. As part of my morning routine, I check our accounts and adjust the budget accordingly (ah yes, this…

  • Clusterf*ck

    Clusterf*ck

    My brain is exhausted this morning and last night’s pizza (so good) has decided to give me heartburn. This week has been… weird. On the one hand, getting financially approved to pay for the Recovery Program (and subsequently waiting impatiently for that to go through) was the highlight. On the other hand, we’ve fallen off…

  • Infidelity & Inequity

    Infidelity & Inequity

    I am a fairly patient, considerate, and understanding woman. I’ve been through the ringer far too much for one person. I look back at my life and wonder what sort of Karmic Justice I’ve enacted with as much shit as I’ve had to endure, but the fact is… I’m a pretty good egg. I don’t…

  • Whoops!

    Whoops!

    Took my Friday Free Day off aaaaand… totally missed Saturday, too. 😅 I have a really good reason, though! My psychiatrist prescribed me a bedtime med for helping me sleep, and boy did it really help me sleep the first night… and well into the next day. Haha. 😑 I was so tired that I…

  • ADHD Research – Phase 4

    ADHD Research – Phase 4

    As a woman, I ought to know a lot more about menstrual cycles than I do. I feel that the educational institutions in our country have repeatedly failed at educating girls and boys on how our bodies work and why. Then again, my mother never educated me, either. Either way, I learned that menstrual cycles…

  • ADHD Research – Phase 3

    ADHD Research – Phase 3

    On the heels of my previous two ADHD Research Phases, armed with inspiration and validation from WearsTwoGowns (thank you so much!), I’m going to dive further into the possible connection between my cPTSD (diagnosed currently as PTSD) – i.e. lifetime of trauma – and the The Pituitary Gland. Or, as I like to call it……