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Category: Mental & Physical Health

  • Me Too

    Me Too

    DISCLAIMER: Please be advised that I am not going to “soften” words and use things like “grape” or “SA.” This post includes talks of psychological manipulation/coercion, rape, sexual trauma, etc. I don’t have any designs to “bring back” the movement that hit with #metoo nor do I have the knowledge about whether it’s even still…

  • Connection

    Connection

    This morning after Walkies, I got in the shower. The Boyfriend had expressed joining me. At one point, he came in to the bathroom like he was about to do so, then left. As time went on and I did my thing, he didn’t come back. When I was finishing up, I called out and…

  • I Miss My Old Sleep

    I Miss My Old Sleep

    Four score and seven years ago… or some time in 2021… I slept well. Granted, I slept a lot, it was very difficult to wake me, and I was a grumpy bish upon waking, buuuuut… omg did I sleep hard and have better energy. Then, I started taking Gabapentin (for nerve issues). I believe I…

  • “Should”

    “Should”

    So Sayeth the Google AI Mode (tried a new version): The word “should” is not inherently “bad” in the sense of being a swear word, but it is often viewed as harmful or counterproductive in psychology, communication, and personal development. The word can create a cycle of shame, guilt, and unrealistic expectations for oneself and others. …

  • Avoidant Personality Disorder

    Avoidant Personality Disorder

    So… along with The Boyfriend’s individual therapist’s initial suspicions, my opinion is that he has Avoidant Personality Disorder. I have suspected this for some time, mostly because I like to do research on things and learn the how and why of behaviors and whatnot. I am an Anxious Attachment Disorder type (though not diagnosed officially).…

  • Bittersweet Purgatory

    Bittersweet Purgatory

    Well, at least the featured AI pic is cool. So Sayeth the Google: Purgatory is a Roman Catholic doctrine describing a post-death process of purification for souls that are not yet perfect enough to enter heaven. Souls in purgatory are in God’s friendship but must be cleansed of attachment to sin before they can reach God’s presence. This…

  • The Down Side

    The Down Side

    H. I. Triple L. The Downhill Slide? Sorry. I’m late posting today, the motivation has flown away into the vast beyond. After the shenanigans with the former anti-psychotic and all that entailed, I’m glad to be off it, but… I wonder if it wasn’t ALSO helping with motivation. I stopped taking it because of the…

  • EMDR

    EMDR

    So Sayeth the Google: EMDR, or Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing, is a psychotherapy treatment that helps people heal from trauma and other distressing life experiences. It’s based on the idea that the mind can naturally heal from psychological trauma in a way similar to how the body heals from physical wounds. EMDR therapy involves eight phases, including…

  • Love/Hate

    Love/Hate

    Thank you TonysBologna: “How to Write More” – for inspiring me to get off my ass and just write. I was legitimately on my ass on the couch scrolling on my phone… and ya called me out (damnit 😝)! Also, visit the site where I got the featured picture from, because holy shit that’s some…

  • Painful Sleep

    Painful Sleep

    This bout with the meds and shit really screwed things up for me. Not shocking, it DOES happen, but fuck me is it frustrating. I hate it. Trying to find medicine to help me with pain (or “happiness”) is like finding needle in a haystack. And? Even if it works, the side effects are unbearable…

  • Bleh

    Bleh

    I’ve had a rough go these past few days. Today, I woke up with a headache, probably from dehydration, and sore from sleep (or lack thereof, really). I’m not really motivated to write, either. I’m exhausted, sore, and just generally not feeling all that great. I’m doing “better” than I have been, which isn’t saying…

  • Just One of Those Days

    Just One of Those Days

    I was going to write about the Perseids Meteor Shower that peaks today and tomorrow, at the taint of dawn (just before the ass crack of dawn, mind you). But… I saved the draft for tomorrow. I had trouble getting to sleep last night. Restless legs are a fun new addition to the suffering I…