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Avoidant Personality Disorder

So… along with The Boyfriend’s individual therapist’s initial suspicions, my opinion is that he has Avoidant Personality Disorder. I have suspected this for some time, mostly because I like to do research on things and learn the how and why of behaviors and whatnot. I am an Anxious Attachment Disorder type (though not diagnosed officially).…
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Bittersweet Purgatory

Well, at least the featured AI pic is cool. So Sayeth the Google: Purgatory is a Roman Catholic doctrine describing a post-death process of purification for souls that are not yet perfect enough to enter heaven. Souls in purgatory are in God’s friendship but must be cleansed of attachment to sin before they can reach God’s presence. This…
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The Down Side

H. I. Triple L. The Downhill Slide? Sorry. I’m late posting today, the motivation has flown away into the vast beyond. After the shenanigans with the former anti-psychotic and all that entailed, I’m glad to be off it, but… I wonder if it wasn’t ALSO helping with motivation. I stopped taking it because of the…
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EMDR

So Sayeth the Google: EMDR, or Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing, is a psychotherapy treatment that helps people heal from trauma and other distressing life experiences. It’s based on the idea that the mind can naturally heal from psychological trauma in a way similar to how the body heals from physical wounds. EMDR therapy involves eight phases, including…
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Love/Hate

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Painful Sleep

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Bleh

I’ve had a rough go these past few days. Today, I woke up with a headache, probably from dehydration, and sore from sleep (or lack thereof, really). I’m not really motivated to write, either. I’m exhausted, sore, and just generally not feeling all that great. I’m doing “better” than I have been, which isn’t saying…
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Just One of Those Days

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Intrusive Thoughts

So Sayeth the Google (and it’s a lot of good info): Intrusive thoughts are unwanted, unwelcome, and often disturbing thoughts, images, or urges that pop into one’s mind without warning. They are common, and while often distressing, they are not typically harmful or indicative of mental illness. However, when these thoughts become persistent, intrusive, and lead to…
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Art Appreciation

Here in Colorado, where the services for mental health are abundant, I discovered a great place that not only got me started with IFS/EMDR, but personal, trauma-informed Yoga therapy, as well. With a lifetime of trauma under my belt, I never imagined that I could participate in a movement/mind-body/trauma type of therapy. And my therapist…
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Fuck Your Potential

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Crestfallen

Now that I’ve had a nap, I feel less tired. Problem is, I am an “Emotional Masochist” and started a romantic movie called “The Idea of You” with Anne Hathaway (love her!) and Nicolas Galitzine (never heard of him before this). Yeeeeah… I stopped halfway through. For some fucked up reason, I watch these movies…
