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The Void of Despair
“Words of Affirmation” is my Love Language. Words are my emotional and mental lifeblood, they can lift me up AND break me down. They can help me thrive in tough times, or… send me spiraling into The Void of Despair – which is not a good place for me. Hurtful words are like a landmine,…
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The Aftermath
One song that I used to love, for no other reason than how beautiful it was, is “You Lost Me” – by Christina Aguilera. It’s 15 years old now and I still love it. The problem is that now it’s hauntingly beautiful and – unfortunately – relatable (in a way). It’s another “need to listen…
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My Love/Hate Relationship with “Romance”
When I was a little girl in Seattle, WA, I had some BIG admiration for Mighty Mouse (*sings* Here I come to save the daaaay!). I wouldn’t call it a crush, given how smol I was (like 4-ish?!). I doubt anyone that age really understands the dynamics of it. However, I believe this was the…
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One Favorite Moment
It’s fairly difficult for me to think back and find a moment in my life that I would choose as a favorite, mostly because those are few and far between. I’ve talked quite a bit in my past entries about how much trauma and strife I’ve been through. However, the one I’m having come up…
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Forgiveness
During one of my Women’s Support Group meetings for R4S – an addiction recovery program (more to come on that, stay tuned) – we discussed how difficult it is to forgive our partners for the Betrayal Trauma and everything else they inflicted on us. One of the other ladies talked about the overwhelming pressure that…
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I Found a Squirrel in My Basement
Heh. Whilst doing the morning cat swap routine, I discovered Squirrel in the basement. I didn’t get a picture at the time, so here is Squirrel: GAH! Kawaaiiiiii (cute in Japanese, cuz I’m a nerd). Dis the cat we think belongs to the new neighbors. I nicknamed it Squirrel because it’s hair is mostly short-medium,…
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Bread Crumbs
I feel like this one will be a decent extension (expansion?) of my previous post – “It’s the Little Things“… we shall see. Today, we venture into the world of “Bids for Connection” – which, if I’m not mistaken, was created by Dr. John and Julie Gottman (and for the record, Dr. John looks a…
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Hypocrisy
Ok, first off… it’s really difficult for AI to create a decent featured picture for this, so I finally just settled on the one I have. If I had the time (or motivation… ha), I’d draw something up real quick and post it, but… meh. I’m already unbearably late in posting this (we finally got…
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If You Wanted to, You Would
Happy 1st Year Anniversary to myself and The Boyfriend, I guess. I hand-made him a card earlier this week and ordered something for a gift (it arrives tomorrow, unfortunately). We’d previously discussed doing something yesterday to celebrate our anniversary, given that TODAY (our actual anniversary) he would be at work ALL day (5:30a to 6:30p).…
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The Last Day
Booooy, has it been a YEAR – tomorrow being my and The Boyfriend’s 1st year Anniversary. If you’ve read my previous entries, there’s some “subtle” (lol) hints that it hasn’t been all rainbow farts and craft herpes (glitter). Not to say that I haven’t enjoyed some of our relationship, of course. He makes me laugh…
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The First Step
The Journey of a Thousand Miles Begins with One Step – Lao Tzu The Brother has taken his first step in healing and made the move to Colorado – and away from The Plague. Unfortunately, his wife stayed in Arkansas, having moved out a week prior and gotten her own place. I don’t blame her,…
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Patience is…
Exhausting. Frustrating. Disappointing. Unfulfilling. “Patience is a virtue” – William Langland circa 1360 (poem: Piers Plowman) Patience is considered a virtue because it allows individuals to endure difficulties, delays, or challenges without becoming anxious or reactive. It fosters inner strength, sound judgment, and better decision-making, ultimately leading to greater success and well-being. (so says Google AI) Yep. I…
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