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Understanding Addiction
Whew… Addiction [to any/all manner of things] runs rampant the world over, so I KNOW this one is going to hit a lot of people really hard – whether you have an addiction(s) or a loved one (like me, thrice over) does. But, I deeply understand. You are not alone. And… in the off chance…
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Self-Reflection
Disclaimer: Talks of Unaliving Over my lifetime, I’ve had many moments of self-reflection. I say moments, but sometimes they’re more than that. Sometimes, I spend hours thinking about who I am and who I want to be. Sometimes, life throws things at me that hit so hard that I can’t help but ruminate on them…
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The Weight of Depression
Today, I’ll share a journal entry I created 5 years ago, that still applies. It’s a very apt description of how depression feels physically for me. August 3rd, 2020 Have you ever been buried in sand? Imagine one of those random beach days, the sun shining, clouds drifting by lazily, the sound of the gentle…
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I Have Bad Taste in Men
I hate the phrase “daddy issues,” but… even though it’s more often derogatory than not, it exists with a specific – vaild?! – meaning (still hate it). The term implies that a woman may have difficulty trusting men, forming healthy relationships, or setting boundaries, potentially due to past experiences with her father, which can lead…
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Sacrifices… bleh
Lordt… aside from the traumas, sacrifices are another ginormous list of things I’ve had too much of in my life 😅 I lost parts of myself along the way to The Plague, Gravity, The Dementor, and various other “adults” that came and went. So, I suppose the biggest sacrifice I made was my sense of…
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Oof… Freedom, eh?!
This is a bit of a tough one, because it can mean a plethora of things to each one of the billions of people on this fucked up planet. But, of course, the ask is for what it means to ME… And theeeeeen… my ADHD brain wants to categorize all the different “types” of freedom…
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The Good, the Bad, the UGLY
In my last post, I talked about trauma, what it is, the types, and examples of most of what I’ve had to endure on that front. Today – even though I have a couple other things I REALLY want to get off my chest (and maybe I will later?!) – I will divulge how all…
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My Brain on Trauma
My life has been chock full of hardships. There’s so much of it that it’s really difficult for me to know where to start, what to cover, HOW to cover everything, and a plethora of other hurdles. The struggle is real, y’all (ew… the Arkansas came out there, my bad). And before I proceed, I’m…
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Do I Dare?!
Every once in a while I will participate in the “daily prompt” that WordPress so graciously offers (if it intrigues me :P), but those are most likely going to be a short, sort of one-off entry to get my creative juices flowing. As such, I will most likely write a 2nd entry – provided I…
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The “Slow” Descent
I want my “normal” depression back… If you’ve made it this far into my blog, having read most/all of what came before, you have a decent idea of the severity of my mental health as it stands now, and a relative peek into why (see: The Plague). But for shits and giggles, I’ll put the…
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It’s the Little Things
Life has a way of showing up in varying degrees of defining moments. Sometimes, these moments are “good” and have a positive effect. But a lot of times, life hits you in the gut and it sucks whale anus, leaving painful ripples behind for much longer than we’d like. Ah, yes… good ole’ Van Damme.…
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Cats & Anhedonia
“A cat has absolute emotional honesty: human beings, for one reason or another, may hide their feelings, but a cat does not.” – Ernest Hemingway Cats are, hands down, my favorite “domesticated” (I quote bc 😆, riiiiight) animal. I have loved cats since the first one – which I named Tinkerbell – when I was…
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