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ADHD Research – Phase 4
As a woman, I ought to know a lot more about menstrual cycles than I do. I feel that the educational institutions in our country have repeatedly failed at educating girls and boys on how our bodies work and why. Then again, my mother never educated me, either. Either way, I learned that menstrual cycles…
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ADHD Research – Phase 3
On the heels of my previous two ADHD Research Phases, armed with inspiration and validation from WearsTwoGowns (thank you so much!), I’m going to dive further into the possible connection between my cPTSD (diagnosed currently as PTSD) – i.e. lifetime of trauma – and the The Pituitary Gland. Or, as I like to call it……
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An Unexpected Lifeline
I previously wrote two posts: ADHD Research Phase 1 and Phase 2 – detailing my (once again) renewed research energy in trying to figure out what the hell is wrong with me. Based on previous research and updated information from viable resources on the internet, I curated these posts specifically to remember exactly what I…
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My Whole Life
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ADHD Research – Phase 2
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ADHD Research – Phase 1
Once in a while, the “whore for <insert thing>” part of me gets a random flash of inspiration to delve deeply into research because I have an insatiable desire to know “why it do dis?!” Today’s Inspiration?! Why the hell does my body keep – repeatedly – rejecting medications (specifically after having my period)? For…
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The Reclamation Room
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Coping Mechanisms
Sometimes, mindless tasks help distract my brain from the overwhelming pressure and weight of my TRMDD/Anhedonia. Sunday night, everything bottomed out and I’ve been stuck cycling between Apathy, Numbness, and bouts of Dissociation (also coping mechanisms) for a solid 48 hours, as of last night. When it gets like this, I have zero motivation to…
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Thank you, Brain!
Last night, I stayed up far too late playing Valheim and had difficulties falling asleep, thinking about what to write for my blog this morning. Then, for reasons beyond my comprehension, I fell asleep thinking that I didn’t need to worry about it (though I DO have a fantastic topic) because it would be Monday…
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The Downward Spiral
Yesterday, as The Boyfriend recovered from… stuff… I messaged (he was upstairs) and asked if anything was the matter, pointing out that he seemed distant. He didn’t answer, so I went outside to lay sideways in my hammock and rock myself while I spiraled into the Void of Self-Loathing and Despair. I cried silently, just…
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Me Too
DISCLAIMER: Please be advised that I am not going to “soften” words and use things like “grape” or “SA.” This post includes talks of psychological manipulation/coercion, rape, sexual trauma, etc. I don’t have any designs to “bring back” the movement that hit with #metoo nor do I have the knowledge about whether it’s even still…
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Connection
Who IS EnchiPants?! 