39.5 – For Last Week’s MM:
An underrated cheat code in life: being incredibly reliable.
Show up on time.
Do what you say you will.
Own your mistakes.It goes so much further than you think.
If you asked the people closest to you, would they say you’re reliable?
Where in your life might you be letting people down?
Pick one thing you said you would do and haven’t. Do it this week. Reply and tell me what happened.
Remember: Small changes lead to lasting breakthroughs.
I believe that people would say that I’m pretty reliable. I do strive to be earlier than on time, do what I say I will, and own up to my mistakes. It’s taken a long time to get here, and many trials and tribulations, of course, but… I think I’m doing alright by these standards. Not perfect, obviously. Everyone has room for improvement – and I am no exception.
As for picking a thing I’ve said I’d do… well, that’s a bit tougher, because I can’ recal anything at the moment.
The Conversation You’re Avoiding
Two thing for you to think about
The honest conversation you’re avoiding is likely the one your relationship needs the most.
Avoiding conflict doesn’t protect a relationship. It lets one person suffer in silence while the other suffers by wrongly thinking everything is fine.
Reflect: Then consider sharing this thought with others.
Two things for you to ask yourself
What honest conversation are you avoiding? What’s it costing your relationship?
Recommended: Use these as journaling prompts for the week.
One thing for you to try this week
Have the honest conversation you’ve been avoiding this week. Reply and tell me what happened.
Remember: Small changes lead to lasting breakthroughs.
As for how I’m doing… normal?! That’s the best I can do to describe the aftermath of my birthday and the surrounding overload to my nervous system. I had Ketamine this past Thursday, which has helped in regulating all that, but I’m so feckin exhausted. The consequences that were supposed to come about from the past relapse are moot as well, I guess. Either way, it feels like things have gone back to mostly the same old shite, different day. The first couple of days after The Ordeal, when we finally had productive check-ins, were.. well, productive. I could tell a difference in the way he told me about the cues and thoughts he was having, which was surreal and weird. But that has, of course, died back down to the normal, mundane check-ins.
On Friday, I found out that the program we’re in is going to be losing both the men’s and women’s coaches. Their last day is June 30th and the possibility of the entire program being taken down for who knows how long was a huge bummer. And it sucks whale anus because The Boyfriend had agreed to star it over from the beginning. But without the support, I’m not sure how it will go. I’m nervous and apprehensive. I want this to work and for him to give our relationship a solid chance at success, along with his recovery from the addiction itself.
So, yeah… idfk. More “wait and see” crap that’s super annoying.
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